durjana

Yang, sedang buat apa? Nak tengok gambar / video bikini saya (18sx). Senang je, type ON ABLA hantar ke 33766. Mesti happy.

text phone pun ada spamming ke? keh keh keh. jadah ape lar duk berniaga benda ni. bukan sekali dapat text jenis camni, 2,3 kali jugak lah. oit! internet di hujung jari lah. tak maen lah guna provider jenis gini nak download porno.

redtube, youjizz. semua free kot. sape tak suka barang free kan? kan kan?

ada hati, ada iman. pikirlah sendiri.

kenangan silam #4

hanya gua sorang je yang faham hati gua sekarang. pedih, jeles, marah. semua ada. orang laen tak faham betapa hancurnya hati gua ni. kecewa kuasa seratus. frustrated to the power of hunded. lu orang apa tau. sedih woo. bila harapan tinggi melangit, jatuh hancur atas tanah, panngg! berderai, jadi debu, hilang dibawa angin entah ke mana.

satu-satunya harapan gua masa kecik-kecik dulu hancur berderai macam tu je. dengan harapan tu lah, gua belajar rajen-rajen. tengok dari tingkap, jiran duk main guli, gua pulak duk nyanyi enam kali enam, dua belas! dengan bapak gua.  jiran ponteng sekolah dragon ball punya pasal. bapak gua pulak bidas gua dengan rotan paksa suruh pergi sekolah. gua pulak kayuh basikal sorang-sorang dengan linangan air mata. sedih woo bila tak leh tengok Goku kasi kamekameha kat Fliza. tapi sekarang baru gua paham. nape bapak gua buat macam tu semua. semua untuk gua jugak. sayang lebih bapak gua. 

sekarang, bila gua bukak fesbuk. tengok gambar, tengok status. faka! jeles tu jadi makin kuat. tengok salji, tengok daun-daun gugur. luluh woo hati gua. tengok member-member yang belajar kat oversea. memang cukup buat gua jeles. lagi jeles bila bukak blog budak-budak oversea. tengok gambar semua. trip sana-sini. pergghh. memang terbaik. tambah lagi tengok blog akak ni sorang; alexa yussida. merata-rata dah trip around europe. gua panggil lu akak? what the heck! keh keh keh.

terasa menyesal bila tolak tawaran  ni dulu.

bila gua mengadu dekat mak gua, mak gua cakap,
"Allah have better plan for us."

pandai pulak mak gua speaking. maju-maju. keh keh keh. terkelu lidah gua. ya, memang betol. Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk gua. apa guna belajar jauh-jauh, bila family, mak bapak kita perlukan kita. dah cukup ke kita balas budi mak bapak kita? nak balas lepas kita balik nanti, sempat ke tidak. tambah-tambah kalau yang anak bongsu.

the main reason sebab gua rasa tak menyesal tak fly dulu sebab even belajar dalam negara pun gua dah hari-hari rindu family, mak bapak gua. rindu nak makan pulut durian air tangan mak gua. mak bapak gua pun hari-hari duk rindu gua. sebab tu lar mereka call gua hari-hari. keh keh keh. gua pun bergayut dengan mak gua hari-hari, ada faedahnya jugak dari bergayut ngan awek 2,3 jam. kan? atleast, tanya sihat ke tidak? makan ubat belum? mama masak ape hari ni?

dan,
chemical engineer is much more cooler than mandarin teacher right? keh keh keh.

lagipun universiti gua kelassssssssssss wooo. high class. ce teka apa nama universiti gua. sape betol, gua belanja.

tak penting kau belajar kat mana pun. walau kau belajar local, tapi tak pernah nak menghargai family yang dekat dengan kau. itu lagi faka! namanya. hargailah dan belajar rajen-rajen supaya mampu jadi Chemical Engineer yang COOL dan HENSEM! motivasi untuk diri sendiri.

a true story

story from a best friend of mine.
he still can't move on after 2 years.

short stories from his memories, 
it was a rainy day, and my car sucked a lot on that day. i borrowed my mum's so that i could be there for her. 
i took the car and went to the nearest mall and got her something pink. she used to tell me how much she loves that thing. 
i figured that, the pink thing is the best present for her birthday. it didn't get any better than this. and i am wearing pink on that day. 
rain was very heavy and i have to go through a lot of traffic to give her the present. no cake for her this time. i'm sorry. 
she walked towards my car and got in. i gave her the present and she smiled. i knew she will love it. i just want to see that smile of hers. 
her mother love it too. 
that was her last birthday with me. hmmmm, but she keep it till now. i like that.

its very sad if remembering such memories. the saddest part when he is going to oversea for his studies. the girl still yet come to see him or even leave him a message. i still remember when he told me on how he keeps calling that girl. the girl still do not pick the call. even he is now at overseas, he used to call that girl. yes, a very true the fact about a man is, when this situation appear, a weird feeling come across. what i can describe it in simple words, "perasaan macam orang bodoh!" you got that? until now, he does not crush for other girls. pity him.

and if i put here the photo of him.  how good looking he is. and how smart he is. surely a lot will say how stupid that girl is.

cinta, perasaan dan hati tak boleh dipaksa. itu je gua boleh cakap. noktah.

homesick

mood sekarang gua rindu mama, ayah dan family.
my cuties, ekal, qalesha and aqil.